Kk, even though I don’t know how I feel about him, I just wanted to say,
“I HAVEN’T LOOKED ON HIS WALL FOR ABOUT 2 MONTHS NOWW!”
I’m so proud.
Even though there were times when I wanted to see wat he was up to, times when i wanted to see wat ppl said to him, I controlled myself.
:D
Yay!
Dear “My Boyfriend In the Future”,
I really hope we meet soon, but if it not it’s ok because I trust fate to bring us together when it’s the right time.
One really important thing to me in a relationship is TRUST. I really hope that I can trust you to not break my heart like the jerks I’ve known before. If I sometimes seem hard to reach, like I don’t let people in, please don’t be mad and try to understand that I’ve been hurt before and I’m just scared. Give me some time.
Im a really weird, old-fashioned, girly type of person. I want to go on moonlight walks on the beach with you, to go parks and have a picnic lunch in the shade, watch old movies like “The Titanic” and cry at the sad parts with you there to comfort me.
I’d like to be able to tell you everything; if i’m happy, if im sad, if im mad, all my secrets, good news, bad news, everything. I want to trust you. But know that for you to get my trust, you must first earn it.
I make many mistakes, I find I do that alot. So if I do, if I make a mistake with you, please don’t cut me off; whether it’s something I said or a fight we had, please give me another chance!
I hope we meet soon, if not, I’ll wait for as long as it takes.
Love,
Me.
I apologize for my mean teasing beforehand, because I know it can be harsh sometimes. But know that it honestly means that I love you. You’re more than welcome to tease me back, relentlessly if you wish, it won’t matter to me, since I love you so much and I’m sure I can take whatever you throw at…
I’ve been hurt way too many times to count. I guess it’s God’s way of having me find you. I don’t care if I have to go across the world to find you. I know we’ll be perfect for each other. I hope you don’t mind me watching Seinfeld and repeating every word. Or screaming Blink-182 for everyone to…
Ive finally moved on, I’ve stopped talking to you, I honestly don’t care what you thinking me anymore, ive even gone through a relationship after all the drama and pain you’ve given me… Yet, noww. (sigh) it’s a long story, I might write about it some day, but long story short: I like this guy, he likes me, he asked me to grad, I said yes, we kissed, and I heard from my friend that he wants to ask me out.
She asked me if I wanted him to ask me out, and then… Well, I didn’t wanna admit it, but maybe I havent let go of you yet.
I WANT to move on, I WANT go forget about you, I WANT to let go, buy sometimes it seems like I can’t.
Please. Someone help me. Get him OUT OF MY HEAD.
It’s going to take me a while to trust you and even longer for me to open myself up to you, I hope you will stay with me until that happens. I need you to stay with me when I push you away and realise that I am only doing it because I am terrified of getting hurt. When I cry you need to be there…
today was the fun fair at my school. while i was just walking around looking for someone, you friends start throwing things at me.
and you just stood there.
i didnt expect you to jump in front of me and be my sheild or anything, but y did u just stand there? even if you just tried, and said maybe “stop it guys.” it would have worked. and even if it didnt, i wouldnt care because i know that you had the intention to stop them, that you care just for a minute.
but you didnt.
wat was i thinking? that you would do something like that? im crazy.
do u know wat the first thing that came out of my mouth was? “im done.” then the tears came.
i told my friend who said to just forget about them:
“you dont understand. how much it hurts. for that one person who said ‘i love you’ to you many times, who hugged you, made you day, kissed you, for that person to just stand there. i fell in love with him, believed him, trusted him, and then he just pretended none of this happened. he just wiped everything away, and pretended like NOTHING went on between us. like everything that happened never existed, WE never existed. i dont exist.”
so im done.
my friends were right about you. you arent worth my time if youre gonna treat me like that.
im done. i dont care if you talk to me, because i certainly wont talk to you. i dont care if u say hi, because im not going to say hi, make the first move. im done trying to fix something that i should have realized couldn’t be fixed.
im done.
ive finally moved on for sure.
im done.
~I’m Done. DONE. - Day 17~
i… i dont know how to phrase this. XD
im finally over you. (i guess thats how ill phrase it.)
after the camp thing, i feel different towards you, i dont really care that you dont talk to me anymore, i dont really care that you just walk past me, i dont really care anymore! :)
like ur still my friend, but i dont care about “us, us” as much anymore.
i sometimes still get the butterflies, but im not so nervous. i still want you to talk to me, but if you just walk past me i dont really notice.
things have changed. and i think for the better.
:)
~Over you. - Day 16~
iloveyou. ♥
